it's like my hair is tucked into my sweatshirt

it's like i am scarfed

or it was 'whose live blog will be the first to win the national book award'

i remember everything

i scroll down through my existence & feel sharp against guts

if that’s what was there

read all the old texts from 2k11

between me & this girl

it's like two months ago i was in love w/ someone & still am

i feel consistently strange & i am

afraid to tweet how ugly i feel inside of my body sometimes

bc if enough ppl follow me idk

follow me

RT my longing for touch

i am riding my bike home through sleet

biting against my cheeks

& mud is flying up from my tires onto my clothes

i will soon be naked

my beard is wet w/ the ocean

snarly & cute

w/ red dust & makeup from women who kiss my beard

it's in there

& i am obsessed w/ being in there

a quail scamps out of a thicket w/ a dozen small quails in tow

it seems stupid to want to be covered in gold

or stand on olympus

& say i want to win the olympics

i am an artist bc i am in love w/ everything it is possible for me to be in love w/

she lives in virginia but

she should be here

or she should be in the sea

or somewhere that i can be w/ her when she wants me to be

plaster my face on the soundwall of crashing ocean

the force of you saying air against rock

it speaks for nobody & that is the voice i hold

dearest to the heart of oak or pine

these are all things

wood is just what my arms & legs & heart are made of

i am inhaling everything

i am everything

my grin is already on all the granite standing

still over all time

is all time

is all time

why should i build myself a mausoleum

paint my morning face on a wall & surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

don't forget to forget me

my name is sinking in depths of a crushing weight

i am a wave too

i am slowly going the way of my quickness

she too a roaming sea
surf me out into the unknown edge

my hair is dancing

feel every change in my mind

it’s just ask me

to carry you over every puddle

i think everything is okay

talk to people

what's yr job right now?

that’s all i do

but what's yr job

i am just talking to myself

it's magical

it's my trick

my sleeves are full of it

i wrote a poem ages ago

i'd write more poems but they’d just be love poems

& i can’t handle the weight that puts on

lunch is at 3 tho so i can blast my brains w music & drugs for half an hour maybe that will help who knows

wanna hit up the sino w me

i'll front ya a hundo

COME ON TRAV

no i said id front you a hundred dollars

to gamble w/ but then you would owe me a hundred dollars

to be paid back within 10 years

you will give me one hundred dollars?

haha after i lose the hundred dollars

that’s why you win

10 yrs i can handle that

i'll give u $3 a month until it's paid off

nah i can't go dude i have a 10k race in the morning

but i would

sometime

no i only take lump sums of 25$

good to know

what time is this so called 10k

8am

haha

"so called"

laugh out loud

at me existence

we can only chuck dirt clods as a good thing

& fuck & enjoy that too

& give each other our feelings in a way that is not a weapon

but if you have to stab me

just do it

if that is what you have forming a canyon through the desert of yr warm sooncorpse

it's a feeling

needles up my back

my ooze & yr deathwish on my chest

just listen to me

there isn't much else i can say in between my last gurgling gasps

why should i build myself a mausoleum

paint my morning face on a wall & surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

don't forget to forget me

my name is sinking in depths of crushing water

i am a wave too

i am slowly going the way of my quickness

she too a roaming

my heavy chest & gangster trot through the city

it's raining today

it's chilly

maybe i will stay inside all day

maybe i will run in my mind

maybe i will write a poem too

a poem about things i sd i would not write abt

i am thinking abt art

i am thinking abt a girl i am not around much anymore

i am thinking abt the jizz in my body & cleaning

i am washing my socks by themselves in the wash

these are all of my socks

i have 1 million pairs of socks

people say nice socks to me sometimes

but that's not why i wear them

you know michael jordan went to the casino before finals games

bc you are running a race

& i want to stuff my money into my chest

& drive around in my dead gold volvo

singing magnetic fields 69 love songs songs

i need new fire

i need new less me

trav doesn't see the comparison between

michael jordan in his hayday & travis davis in his hayday

i am loaded

i am flush & trying to score drugs

bc it's not like i need them

my brain is just wanting something beyond another championship ring

i am expanding

& it is the scariest thing for a mind to

yeah but he was like having sex with other women and shit. i'm hanging out w/ linds tonight

hahaha

damn you

just sayin'

lol

but on a day later in the spring i'd go w/ you

i haven't been to a casino in a year or two

i'd pry play blackjack

well i just want to go bc i got my tax return and a paycheck today so i'm loaded

you'll lose it all

lose?

jk

you're a winner

i'd rather win money than drink & get depressed

hahahaa

godspeed then

fuck gods

but good luck on your race

i hope you beat everyone

w/ an ass jaw

tell me to share what is already for you

tell me to give away what is free

& standing in pasture

somewhere near where you are from

oh

it's a city

it's a big beauty of crushed stone

 

i think everything is okay

ya its ok

you need the speed of demigods

justin

so do i

it makes no sense does it?

:v

:) :) :) :(

dogg

diggidy dogg

hit that blackjack up for me

i'm bouncing out to pick up my bib # for my race

godspeed

i hope it’s 13

break a leg

today

finished 5th out of 102

damn son gettin paid

it was my highest ranked finish ever in a race

i torched em

i think i got 6 out of 6 in a track race one time

oh yeah?

when was that?

ya it was a longer race that i had never ran before but i was asked to fill in for someone

that was like.... 1999

cool

you know

it's just fun to run

who gives a shit

just run

forrest gump style

 

no that race sucked

because i sprinted out and then got tired and everyone passed me

very embarrassing

i mean this was like one time around a track

i did the same type thing in the empyrean run, i wanted to see how long i could hang with the front runners so i ran w/ them as far as i could

but slowed down, couldn't keep up

but i shoved someone into a tree at one point

so that was hardcore

same thing though

trees deserve our punishment

it’s like jesus on the cross

trees have never done anything for us

they're a real waste

lol ya damn true