SO LONG AGO I CAN'T REMEMBER

my health
i am looking for water
some songs
make me feel good about feeling worthless
i stick my neck
in a wormhole
a glowing fungus is covering me
i am visible from space
this is a desert
there is a dull scoop
a partial moon in my chest
only you know
the rest of the moon is still there
it is a shadow
i drink & say i love you
i am a terrible waste of time
a fucking sad clown
who can't swim
or laugh
& a lion bit my head off
i am all neck
a blind giraffe playing the piano
in some bar in my skull
i have made a mistake
thinking about you

she is the love of it
you do
the warm is in a wave
i drink
the go is forever
she 

the moon


im going
to start writing terrible shit
i hope
nobody cares if i start smoking again
i am going to take a lot of acid
in boise
i wont sleep  anyone
maybe the moon
if she'll have me
but i doubt it
i have a little gravity
my arms are wings
if we are on a cliff
& i want to kiss you
but you push me
this is going
to be the end
i guess
i bought tulips
i would invade holland
for this
because i am a clown
an ass jaw
i am a tripped
it is friday morning

booze


i will
make
a rope
of 100 $ bills 
hang it
from a tree
somewhere
w/ nice weather
& burn
the entire earth

thinking about shaving my face



i have dashes in my throat
mashed fruits fruit juice
comb pulp through my beard
yr fingers are making me woozy
to say say say say say say say
drunk on all of yr all of  you
w/o taking time to breathe
a doozy of weekends in my
brain the tongue is blah blah
in ear of spanish oil or spanish
leather or tips of my walkers
find shelter in stormy hops
over puddle in pitstop toward
where i am not clip ship
sailor my starry meds night
to southern here & southern
as hell is poem as warm in
the winter of my fur growth

summer poem


i want to sit on a warm sidewalk

is what i am thinking

breathe in cut grass

stand naked in a backyard

as the sun goes down

drinking wine out of anything

that can hold

a match


gee whiz
a sound of train & train & train
i too am a burp
from muck
plaster or wall w/ a hole & many holes
is a no good
no
she names us a good
takes my hand to lead in dark
a floor to pass out on
i am just
a drool
not disobey slapdog growl
to whimper off
hop on random passing train
or it passes
& another train
& another train
& another train

three things i like



a merry-go-round
a magic hat
a dog in the race

FEED ME TO YR HOUNDS


bake me a bread suit
i would walk through the oven
to feed yr ears w/ my w
eat me inside out
tell me what to do in wildest
call me tiger
even if im a bambooboy
i need shiny sea & salt on my arms
the hairs stand
i am so sure of explosion when i look
at yr face
me w/ yr arms around my neck
it's goosey for my down to kiss you
walk teeth nipping i am just chatter
for the storm in my chest
walk all over me

everyone is a goer
i gtg
you don't
i am an earth too
i am a martian

you look at me like i am from another planet
i feel like
an alien is what i am saying

A MASSIVE WAVE

fuck you southern europe
fuck you paris
fuck you nyc
fuck you air mattress
fuck you you fuckers
fuck you age
& timing
& my ugly
fuck you arm not around you
fuck you arm around you
fuck you be nice to me
fuck you honesty
fuck you basement
fuck you same clothes as yesterday
fuck you no
fuck you two jobs
fuck you maybe in the future
fuck you future
fuck you selfishness
fuck you i want to be happy
fuck you my shrinking chest
fuck you brain
fuck you busted shoes
fuck you homelessness
fuck you my family wont save me
fuck you new pope
fuck you poems about you
fuck you my wandering 
my eyes
my no blindness
my cancer of a heart
my affection for dogs
my need to be fucked up to have the courage
fuck you i'm sorry
fuck you i am not
fuck you slow coming alarm
& morning
& my whole life ahead of me

THE SHIIIIZZZZZZZZZNIT



feel a normal weird course
put yr legs up
on my
lower me into
i am a photo ghost
smudge yr eye parts that need a fix
me as a kicking post
yr sock half off
i think this heel is radiant
a lightening of comfort is in my lungs
or so heavy as underwater
float at depth
of thousand year old whales
i should go
but i just need closer proximity
to song as sunrise warns my wake
yr small feet i keep thinking
stand on my chest
on my shoulders
on my lips

NELLY > BOB DYLAN



idk
i mean i mean i say things to say them & i mean
i love
i mean you mean so much to me is why i say to you
things abt brother this
is me saying idk i just
don't always understand the waves agnst me or u or yr enemies
yr feelings are nerves or are you a chestbrainer
i just talk abt my teeth
like it's happening
i say i am sorry for my poetry everything i say is my
poem
it says so much abt me that people love me
or know me
or know they know me when idk
or know a fence cut
or know a drive drunk
or i know abt the coach that drowned
i say groundwater a lot & i think abt you as a smaller
version of yrself
being all life is ahead of me w/ yr twinkle toes
dancing across first street or second street
or i'd have to google yr hometown
to say much more abt that
but i know for a fact that my words you know
me spittle sunsweat drippy drugs on a tshirt
taken from the longest necked
i am knocking
the entire universe is around me is a door is open
i am just expressing my feelings for the next
million years
as i have been for a million years already
here is a joke
we don't die
here is a truth
you are a new element
& i could go on & on on this riff
but i don't have to
i am just going to poem here
w/ my voice
& yr ears
my day today is always
how are you
how are you
tell me how you are
tell me abt being the smallest thing alive
tell me abt my insane fruit life
tell me abt destruction
tell me abt weird
ur such a gold slimey octopi
my friend
ur a part of this world w/ me
& that is more insane-o than winning the lottery

RIDE WIT ME

take my hand & put it in yr pocket

it is so nice to be here w/ you

the sun is always shining somewhere

i say when it's dark

catch my mane as it feathers to the ground

i am shedding years of winter

spinning pine needle beard nested

yr neck around my neck

is what i would like to say i say

i am bathing for you on the rooftop

w/ my mind wording the moon closer

it would take a massive wave

to take me off my course of surfing

i am highly

& i am moon reflecting

more than a face pummeled by space boulders

drugged & drug across the sidewalk

on jaw & nerves

don't forget to say hello to my nerves

numb pinch of celebration sparklers

touching me in the sleet storm

as i run away from fears in the forest

i would dive into lightning sand

to save you if that ever came up

in the future as you ask for my hand

bc it's cold & i don't give a care

abt weather but would talk wind

to you abt any standstill right now

is a song in my mind as i never sleep

dreamed w/ my eyes abt every

molecule of air that passes through

lungs & back through the air

& trees take poison from yr mouth

& turn it into something good for me

or anyone to use & give back

i mean the whole life ahead of me

is an ocean & i have barely left

the beach because i am so scared

of sharks who still have their teeth

& salt water is in my eyes & mouth

& i can still feel the sun burning my

skin & waves hit me over & over

in my mind i am playing this story

of who i am or some idea of a person

i seem to be based on every wave

that has ever slapped me around

she too a roaming buzz

up from my knees to my chest & rattling

heaved sky always on top of our heads

at once we are going the same way

from earth we know & far off

my eyes can't even see despite health

but i am there any time you ask

paint my morning face on lunar smiling

& surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

i need lightyears of dancing blackness

to hide my glow from you

my name is sinking in depths of crushing

i am a wave too

slowly going the way of my quickness

RIDE WIT ME

take my hand & put it in yr pocket

it is so nice to be here w/ you

the sun is always shining somewhere

i say when it's dark

catch my mane as it feathers to the ground

i am shedding years of winter

spinning pine needle beard nested

yr neck around my neck

is what i would like to say i say

i am bathing for you on the rooftop

w/ my mind wording the moon closer

it would take a massive wave

to take me off my course of surfing

i am highly

& i am moon reflecting

more than a face pummeled by space boulders

drugged & drug across the sidewalk

on jaw & nerves

don't forget to say hello to my nerves

numb pinch of celebration sparklers

touching me in the sleet storm

as i run away from fears in the forest

i would dive into lightning sand

to save you if that every came up

in the future as you ask for my hand

bc it's cold & i don't give a care

abt weather but would talk wind

to you abt any standstill right now

is a song in my mind as i never sleep

dreamed w/ my eyes abt every

molecule of air that passes through

lungs & back through the air

& trees take poison from yr mouth

& turn it into something good for me

or anyone to use & give back

i mean the whole life ahead of me

is an ocean & i have barely left

the beach because i am so scared

of sharks who still have their teeth

& salt water is in my eyes & mouth

& i can still feel the sun burning my

skin & waves hit me over & over

in my mind i am playing this story

of who i am or some idea of a person

i seem to be based on every wave

that has ever slapped me around

she too a roaming buzz

up from my knees to my chest & rattling

heaved sky always on top of our heads

touch me

at once we are going the same way

from earth we know & far off

my eyes can't even see despite health

but i am there any time you ask

paint my morning face on lunar smiling

& surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

i need lightyears of dancing blackness

to hide my glow from you

my name is sinking in depths of crushing

i am a wave too

slowly going the way of my quickness

it's like my hair is tucked into my sweatshirt

it's like i am scarfed

or it was 'whose live blog will be the first to win the national book award'

i remember everything

i scroll down through my existence & feel sharp against guts

if that’s what was there

read all the old texts from 2k11

between me & this girl

it's like two months ago i was in love w/ someone & still am

i feel consistently strange & i am

afraid to tweet how ugly i feel inside of my body sometimes

bc if enough ppl follow me idk

follow me

RT my longing for touch

i am riding my bike home through sleet

biting against my cheeks

& mud is flying up from my tires onto my clothes

i will soon be naked

my beard is wet w/ the ocean

snarly & cute

w/ red dust & makeup from women who kiss my beard

it's in there

& i am obsessed w/ being in there

a quail scamps out of a thicket w/ a dozen small quails in tow

it seems stupid to want to be covered in gold

or stand on olympus

& say i want to win the olympics

i am an artist bc i am in love w/ everything it is possible for me to be in love w/

she lives in virginia but

she should be here

or she should be in the sea

or somewhere that i can be w/ her when she wants me to be

plaster my face on the soundwall of crashing ocean

the force of you saying air against rock

it speaks for nobody & that is the voice i hold

dearest to the heart of oak or pine

these are all things

wood is just what my arms & legs & heart are made of

i am inhaling everything

i am everything

my grin is already on all the granite standing

still over all time

is all time

is all time

why should i build myself a mausoleum

paint my morning face on a wall & surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

don't forget to forget me

my name is sinking in depths of a crushing weight

i am a wave too

i am slowly going the way of my quickness

she too a roaming sea
surf me out into the unknown edge

my hair is dancing

feel every change in my mind

it’s just ask me

to carry you over every puddle

i think everything is okay

talk to people

what's yr job right now?

that’s all i do

but what's yr job

i am just talking to myself

it's magical

it's my trick

my sleeves are full of it

i wrote a poem ages ago

i'd write more poems but they’d just be love poems

& i can’t handle the weight that puts on

lunch is at 3 tho so i can blast my brains w music & drugs for half an hour maybe that will help who knows

wanna hit up the sino w me

i'll front ya a hundo

COME ON TRAV

no i said id front you a hundred dollars

to gamble w/ but then you would owe me a hundred dollars

to be paid back within 10 years

you will give me one hundred dollars?

haha after i lose the hundred dollars

that’s why you win

10 yrs i can handle that

i'll give u $3 a month until it's paid off

nah i can't go dude i have a 10k race in the morning

but i would

sometime

no i only take lump sums of 25$

good to know

what time is this so called 10k

8am

haha

"so called"

laugh out loud

at me existence

we can only chuck dirt clods as a good thing

& fuck & enjoy that too

& give each other our feelings in a way that is not a weapon

but if you have to stab me

just do it

if that is what you have forming a canyon through the desert of yr warm sooncorpse

it's a feeling

needles up my back

my ooze & yr deathwish on my chest

just listen to me

there isn't much else i can say in between my last gurgling gasps

why should i build myself a mausoleum

paint my morning face on a wall & surround it w/ 100 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000 feet of bomb proof glass

or 100,000,000 million feet of bomb proof glass

don't forget to forget me

my name is sinking in depths of crushing water

i am a wave too

i am slowly going the way of my quickness

she too a roaming

my heavy chest & gangster trot through the city

it's raining today

it's chilly

maybe i will stay inside all day

maybe i will run in my mind

maybe i will write a poem too

a poem about things i sd i would not write abt

i am thinking abt art

i am thinking abt a girl i am not around much anymore

i am thinking abt the jizz in my body & cleaning

i am washing my socks by themselves in the wash

these are all of my socks

i have 1 million pairs of socks

people say nice socks to me sometimes

but that's not why i wear them

you know michael jordan went to the casino before finals games

bc you are running a race

& i want to stuff my money into my chest

& drive around in my dead gold volvo

singing magnetic fields 69 love songs songs

i need new fire

i need new less me

trav doesn't see the comparison between

michael jordan in his hayday & travis davis in his hayday

i am loaded

i am flush & trying to score drugs

bc it's not like i need them

my brain is just wanting something beyond another championship ring

i am expanding

& it is the scariest thing for a mind to

yeah but he was like having sex with other women and shit. i'm hanging out w/ linds tonight

hahaha

damn you

just sayin'

lol

but on a day later in the spring i'd go w/ you

i haven't been to a casino in a year or two

i'd pry play blackjack

well i just want to go bc i got my tax return and a paycheck today so i'm loaded

you'll lose it all

lose?

jk

you're a winner

i'd rather win money than drink & get depressed

hahahaa

godspeed then

fuck gods

but good luck on your race

i hope you beat everyone

w/ an ass jaw

tell me to share what is already for you

tell me to give away what is free

& standing in pasture

somewhere near where you are from

oh

it's a city

it's a big beauty of crushed stone

 

i think everything is okay

ya its ok

you need the speed of demigods

justin

so do i

it makes no sense does it?

:v

:) :) :) :(

dogg

diggidy dogg

hit that blackjack up for me

i'm bouncing out to pick up my bib # for my race

godspeed

i hope it’s 13

break a leg

today

finished 5th out of 102

damn son gettin paid

it was my highest ranked finish ever in a race

i torched em

i think i got 6 out of 6 in a track race one time

oh yeah?

when was that?

ya it was a longer race that i had never ran before but i was asked to fill in for someone

that was like.... 1999

cool

you know

it's just fun to run

who gives a shit

just run

forrest gump style

 

no that race sucked

because i sprinted out and then got tired and everyone passed me

very embarrassing

i mean this was like one time around a track

i did the same type thing in the empyrean run, i wanted to see how long i could hang with the front runners so i ran w/ them as far as i could

but slowed down, couldn't keep up

but i shoved someone into a tree at one point

so that was hardcore

same thing though

trees deserve our punishment

it’s like jesus on the cross

trees have never done anything for us

they're a real waste

lol ya damn true