hawk swoop

you got drunk
and said you hated me every night

i said i loved you
and kissed your breasts

dark splotches on each hip
and that hair

i said i loved you
and kissed your breasts

up your legs
and under arms

i said i loved you
and kissed your breasts

and you told me how to act
and you told me how to look

i kissed your breasts
and walked out into the river

wondering
why i was still dying