I AM SCUM


what a wall can do for me
so i got caught pilfering a donut at the donut shop
so i talk rude to cops
fuck god
i have to wait a few minutes after rage
fuck rage
a fence you can see thru is poison
you say i am clean and everyone around me is scum
why do all my friends want to die
or is it numbskulls mumbling prayers to a wall
the other side is just turning your back on what holds you
this is my fucked up grin
teeth i have collected off the beaches 
the ocean will kill you
the sky is not blue it is just distorted light
i mean there is no color in anything
unless you see it

CHA CHING

this guy i met once who used to work with a friend of mine

getting weed or something

he lived in this gated community

my friend mike said he was from brazil

wait let me make something clear

i am an ideas man

i dream big and choke to deth

so this brazil guy he was tall a lot taller than me and im not short

said if we went to brazil to stay away from non tourist areas

because if you are an asshole at some local dive bar

someone could pay a beggar 5$ to kill you

and this is all about world cup 

the stadium in rio can see columns of smoke

rising from another soccer field not too far away

where local gangs burn people alive in stacked tires

i never save

my money i mean 

this is what we are talking about

when we say we are alive

pay for falling

i want to be on another planet

i think in order to win this war

we need to stop believing in war
money is as real as we want it to be
everyone hears poetry
but listen

CAVE DWELLINGS

sometimes i am reminded of who i was a long time ago
a ghost is the smallest element
i kept trying to use a line in a poem while driving from boise to nebraska
i used it
i wonder what life would be like if i was me again
see things that are a memory of a spec of my dedself
earlier today i was thinking about a time when my father kicked me
as i was on the ground trying to change into clothes for yard work
i wonder if he figured i would forgive him
we forget a lot of events in our lives
years and years if we try hard enough
it is no effort though
thats why its so hard
we see things painted inside of our skulls
this is when we had a good hunt
or when we cried in a ball on the floor

HOW TO COOK PERFECT HARD BOILED EGG

1. get eggs

2. leave eggs in fridge maybe eat one or two any way u want but not hard boiled… yet

3. wait for them to get to date on carton thing

4. place eggs in large pot filled w enough water to more than cover all eggs

5. fill up large bowl w enough water to cover eggs and place bowl in freezer

6. pour a lil salt and a lil vinegar into water 

7. turn on stove top to lets say some where between medium high and high

8. cover

9. wait for it to reach boil

10. let boil for 3-5 minutes

11. remove from heat

12. let sit in hot water for 15-20 min

13. remove 1 egg and dip in in ice water to cool then spin it 

14. if it spins p good then remove all eggs and put in ice water

15. IF EGG SPINS WOBBLY PLACE BACK IN HOT WATER AND BRING BACK TO BOIL FOR IDK 2-3 MIN

16. put bowl of ice water and eggs back in the freezer for 10 min

17. remove eggs from ice water, dry, eat or store for 5-7 days

SPANGLED 


hurts to breathe
read the internet
while taking a dump
i am having a baby
i am a baby
we are in a computer program
the super volcano is going to kill someone
maybe
we will all die one day

HUNGER


i'm blind and i'm stupid i say to salt water
why am i so afraid
of everything?????????
a murderous wave to say hello drowning my old friend
where do people find all these fish
inside of you
i stumble into sadness i cannot run on the beach
w/o feeling
that i have wasted so much
i scream into my brain cage
this skull kills fascists
beating my head w/ the palm of my hand
shout WAKE UP
and eyes fill up w/ tears to whimper
i do not remember my own home
there were once millions of bison here
where can i be buried
that doesn't make me a thief