my life just took a drastic turn for the worse.

i missed a credit card payment, not because i didnt have money, well maybe i didnt, but mostly because i just forgot and now my credit limit dropped drastically by about 700 dollars so now what i was planning on using to apply for graduate school was just eliminated.

this after my previous plan of using medical study money for a medical study that i was
"sure to get into" failed because of BILIRUBIN. which is a waste product in your blood that doesnt really do anything except it can make your skin turn yellow when you bruise.

i am going to die. poor. hungry. cold. stupid. bruised.