i have been friends with anthony vandenberg since i was in the 6th grade. thats what... a long time ago. i was thinking about friends a few... days ago or so and thought that i couldnt really see losing the friends that i have. i mean like losing touch or whatever. not seeing them and not really thinking about it. right now it just seems like everyone is gone because of christmas, but theres a pretty good chance i wont see anthony for a few years. possible. i really miss ellen right now, but i also feel ok i guess. im trying to build up my solitary stamina.