WORST

muffucka never

          i want to fill up all the unfilled holes

                               w/ a huge last cry

    heavy isn't just

 what i carry

 i wait for someone to leave me a voicemail

dad died

     i guess it could be

       i feel like jesus except not fake jesus a real jesus

        who says MY FATHER IS A PIECE OF SHIT

but i forgive or i dont

        it really doesnt matter

       a thud on the roof is nobody there

                     something is wrapping on the window w stones

what abt all the ppl who hid

  inside the horse

         where is my best friend?

toes

it takes me a few weeks of stretching
to even act like i can touch myself

they thought i was faking how inflexible i am
but they are monsters

i am just a worthless son/brother/friend
i keep telling myself

tomorrow i will be a better me
maybe a year from now i will stop dying
on this rock

TREE POEM

only the ground asks me 
where i am going

i look down at the things closest to me
as if i am the queen of it

i take shits here
standing

if deth wasn't so permanent 
i probably would try it a few times

and i scream
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN

but the wind blows
and nothing else happens

FEEDING FRENZY

i know that painting
i mean i know why i am watching breaking bad
looking at clearance furniture online
i checked yr blog
i am really interested in the chemo scenes
i cried a little bit ago
sitting on my roommates sectional couch
smoking marijuana
it annoys me when ppl act like marijuana
is for children
i am not an age just the same decaying bum
inflating and the other
i need to cut my finger nails
it is very windy outside
or so i hear

WET CASH

u see a future skip across lake babcock

hold yr face down so the pigs dont smell yr drunk ass

we are laughing

each rip echoing thru air is last breath, no, they found you

laying in a ditch

buffla

alway jumps away same as earthy stumble

im drunk under the moony goddamn

hose the green lawn for a whole summer dry

no tears for a barely outta here whitemen

cant build a railway to mars quick enough

BLADDER 


relief finger drawn dirt circles or snow signatures
going to toss smooth stones and pieces of a rabbit skeleton
where is the opening
answers crashing wave on darkest beach
as i frantically search for my eyes

WET SOCKS


whimper abt have to pee on a mtn hwy drive
what if i never stopped talking
abt my ugly mug like the drugs war
i revise my history w a few silver medals
so it doesn't seem like  a waste

HITLERS CHILDREN


i like it when that nazis son talks
abt hating his parents
and his own daughter thanks him and calls him her fortress
and he is very old
and he cries and says thank you for that

WINTER

puke on the floor
go back and kiss girlfriend in bed a few times
wheres a head on lap while driving
so drunk
walked a few miles til my fingers fell off

WHY NOT????


there aren't enuf
poems
becuzz

i fed the cats

sometimes i feel like im the only one
hear a cat
i can hear a cat trying to puke
i guess idk if he is trying
he is old
dying
but so are the young cats and all of us
i fed the cats this new food
small colorful discs
and make myself a coffee
the smallest one jumps on the counter
to drink from the tap
and i let her
i dont hear the old cat trying to puke anymore
i let my coffee sit too long it isnt an enjoyable heat
one of the weathermen i follow on twitter
warned of the single digit temps
i wanted to reply
"fuck you"