Yamalok
the sirens that wake me up or keep me up, slowing
are for you
no matter where they are heading
haunt me longer than any city you stay in
remember new york is also a city
or hearding buffalo
without effort you may rope me or
tangle your own toes
looking calf
how is the swimming around your island
did you collect shark teeth
the way i used to collect shark teeth
31 May 2011
sore throat
tired of the telling me
my fear of cold water
a snake
let me leap
legs unbreakable
from chugging the tit
mark my oval pucker
around something more giving
stand out on the edge of a tall thing
there are no bridges worth that life of yours
calm the hungry birds
maybe they will share
my jaws stretched swollen
from bone forming
wake up spitting blood for a few minutes
I'm going to need that hand
your promises
make me laugh out loud at tornadoes
can the wind, wind, and the wind
hear me
over all this expensive wind
tired of the telling me
my fear of cold water
a snake
let me leap
legs unbreakable
from chugging the tit
mark my oval pucker
around something more giving
stand out on the edge of a tall thing
there are no bridges worth that life of yours
calm the hungry birds
maybe they will share
my jaws stretched swollen
from bone forming
wake up spitting blood for a few minutes
I'm going to need that hand
your promises
make me laugh out loud at tornadoes
can the wind, wind, and the wind
hear me
over all this expensive wind
30 May 2011
cabbage
im designating you as my ulcer
no I don't know what you
is
my gun is never loaded
dont let my enemies know
the earth isnt dying right
it should be wild
full of crazy shit
the gods haven't sprung on us yet
like thinking crazy
imaging my voice as strong enough
my actions
could save someone
like the pain as a person
hole in my gut
i'm leaking all over you
my stupid drooling
name calling it sugar pie
or how else am i supposed to remember
im designating you as my ulcer
no I don't know what you
is
my gun is never loaded
dont let my enemies know
the earth isnt dying right
it should be wild
full of crazy shit
the gods haven't sprung on us yet
like thinking crazy
imaging my voice as strong enough
my actions
could save someone
like the pain as a person
hole in my gut
i'm leaking all over you
my stupid drooling
name calling it sugar pie
or how else am i supposed to remember
28 May 2011
27 May 2011
parrot squawk
you forgot how poisonous you are
skag, feeding off my pit
my pitness
call the head a seperate neck top
falling off at the skull bone
shake your hair from the scalping
sharp knife fit hand glide
scrape, or gum the brain skin
with your soft mouth
of no fangs,
mouth words at me with sound
as if i give a damn
what i hear
you forgot how poisonous you are
skag, feeding off my pit
my pitness
call the head a seperate neck top
falling off at the skull bone
shake your hair from the scalping
sharp knife fit hand glide
scrape, or gum the brain skin
with your soft mouth
of no fangs,
mouth words at me with sound
as if i give a damn
what i hear
26 May 2011
mathematics
shaking in your no boots
carry water to the ocean
increase the size of the air
ask paul how tall a celebrity is
like i wonder how tall nick cage is
or i wonder how tall yao ming is
or i wonder
why
she ran away
to the ocean
with all these buckets of water
and i wonder
where she gets all of this water
polluting the salt soup
killing all the fish with purity
or whatever you call it,
go tell it
on the mountain
where there are no mountains
like nebraska
or like anything in my mind
shut-up-i'm-talking
about romance, about it being all quiet
about my nerves fucking up everything i do
about hating the sex of it
thats the truth
i'm going to white out my back brain
places where i remember places
like going there
like a car crash that i remember
because i told the story so many fucking times
i'm bored of that story
and the mountains i tell it on
but here i can see
taking water from one ocean
to fill up another ocean
is stupid.
shaking in your no boots
carry water to the ocean
increase the size of the air
ask paul how tall a celebrity is
like i wonder how tall nick cage is
or i wonder how tall yao ming is
or i wonder
why
she ran away
to the ocean
with all these buckets of water
and i wonder
where she gets all of this water
polluting the salt soup
killing all the fish with purity
or whatever you call it,
go tell it
on the mountain
where there are no mountains
like nebraska
or like anything in my mind
shut-up-i'm-talking
about romance, about it being all quiet
about my nerves fucking up everything i do
about hating the sex of it
thats the truth
i'm going to white out my back brain
places where i remember places
like going there
like a car crash that i remember
because i told the story so many fucking times
i'm bored of that story
and the mountains i tell it on
but here i can see
taking water from one ocean
to fill up another ocean
is stupid.
24 May 2011
neurolux
talk zombie at me ahyaya, cut the shit out of this
tooth melon. i'm going to eliminate the gods of us
banging fist face against table mirrors
as if you couldn't see the fuck you give
pray i don't eat the whole arm and shoulder
chuck your chuck up, tall boy
how tall is anyone with their eyes up
at the rim
where your gums are bleeding
and your jaw hangs by the last of your skin
talk zombie at me ahyaya, cut the shit out of this
tooth melon. i'm going to eliminate the gods of us
banging fist face against table mirrors
as if you couldn't see the fuck you give
pray i don't eat the whole arm and shoulder
chuck your chuck up, tall boy
how tall is anyone with their eyes up
at the rim
where your gums are bleeding
and your jaw hangs by the last of your skin
numb
for mikey
feel the weight of your self on yourself
seriousness of limb loss
your milk is feeding every body
regrow
your accent
hair falling from ground to head
deeper than your the point
making a birth seem more important
than the fuck
that created you
beam for me with your light
take your tongue out of your mouth
leave your home at home
listen with your no ears
for mikey
feel the weight of your self on yourself
seriousness of limb loss
your milk is feeding every body
regrow
your accent
hair falling from ground to head
deeper than your the point
making a birth seem more important
than the fuck
that created you
beam for me with your light
take your tongue out of your mouth
leave your home at home
listen with your no ears
23 May 2011
20 May 2011
craig t. nelson
the weekend counts as one night,
sometimes
this dumb guy forgets what he eats, or is
late for work is always the end
some other guy gets the promotion
gets to be president
or god
i like the way you think in the underbelly
kicking the walls
of your mother
hey lets not get ahead of ourselves
wading in the kiddie pool
years ago
the weekend counts as one night,
sometimes
this dumb guy forgets what he eats, or is
late for work is always the end
some other guy gets the promotion
gets to be president
or god
i like the way you think in the underbelly
kicking the walls
of your mother
hey lets not get ahead of ourselves
wading in the kiddie pool
years ago
18 May 2011
moon
brought into this world to be a boring
venom is the hawks case
and there will be no sign of her here
which the spot has passed
the attention placed on your moon finger
am i lost
again staring at star skies
the same way anyone would in the galaxy
being scared
being tired
being dead
is the pit of my pitness
pressed up against the inside of your metal you
cold shaded body
leaning toward warmth
brought into this world to be a boring
venom is the hawks case
and there will be no sign of her here
which the spot has passed
the attention placed on your moon finger
am i lost
again staring at star skies
the same way anyone would in the galaxy
being scared
being tired
being dead
is the pit of my pitness
pressed up against the inside of your metal you
cold shaded body
leaning toward warmth
16 May 2011
poem thing
i'm struggling to understand my own existence
in the poem, where there is no poem
a wall there, pressing my face against it
to feel the cold move from metal into skin,
teeth become magnatized to what should be said
in the poem, where there is no poem
and questions are just words i don't understand
because my mouth parts wont stop talking--
things fall from things thinging, and scared me
in the poem, where there is no poem
then lightning, then thunder
wind, wind, and the storm forming
thoughts on the night when there is no storm
in the poem, where there is no poem
i'm struggling to understand my own existence
in the poem, where there is no poem
a wall there, pressing my face against it
to feel the cold move from metal into skin,
teeth become magnatized to what should be said
in the poem, where there is no poem
and questions are just words i don't understand
because my mouth parts wont stop talking--
things fall from things thinging, and scared me
in the poem, where there is no poem
then lightning, then thunder
wind, wind, and the storm forming
thoughts on the night when there is no storm
in the poem, where there is no poem
14 May 2011
2k11
for 2k10
this isn't your big feet
this isn't you running
this isn't your wet hair
this isn't about your feelings
this isn't about how fat i feel
this isn't me talking to my dad
this isn't ready for that
this isn't going to be deleted
this isn't going to win
this isn't stacks of green backs
this isn't nap time
this isn't your ears when i kiss them
this isn't you punching me in the mouth
this isn't leaving a message
this isn't cool anymore
this isn't commentary on your old underwear
this isn't a disease
this isn't your bedroom body
this isn't the blood in my mouth
this isn't a fuck up
this isn't clean cut or business casual
this isn't the rest of my life
this isn't your neurosis
this isn't the neurolux
this isn't Hemingways grave
this isn't me crying at thanksgiving
this isn't funny
this isn't another acid trip
this isn't going to change without effort
this isn't zen
this isn't Sway with MTV news
this isn't going anywhere
this isn't San Francisco
this isn't a big deal to you
this isn't even a poem
for 2k10
this isn't your big feet
this isn't you running
this isn't your wet hair
this isn't about your feelings
this isn't about how fat i feel
this isn't me talking to my dad
this isn't ready for that
this isn't going to be deleted
this isn't going to win
this isn't stacks of green backs
this isn't nap time
this isn't your ears when i kiss them
this isn't you punching me in the mouth
this isn't leaving a message
this isn't cool anymore
this isn't commentary on your old underwear
this isn't a disease
this isn't your bedroom body
this isn't the blood in my mouth
this isn't a fuck up
this isn't clean cut or business casual
this isn't the rest of my life
this isn't your neurosis
this isn't the neurolux
this isn't Hemingways grave
this isn't me crying at thanksgiving
this isn't funny
this isn't another acid trip
this isn't going to change without effort
this isn't zen
this isn't Sway with MTV news
this isn't going anywhere
this isn't San Francisco
this isn't a big deal to you
this isn't even a poem
13 May 2011
killebrew
hammerin' at yer throat
call bull
pin ears back at the dirt
your about to tear up,
wind, wind, and the wind blowing
eases the exit
i like to do dishes, i guess
for fun
and pound rocks over walls with a stick
with those arms
you stole from your grandad
the strongest man in the union army
way back when
you stood on deck
with your whole life ahead of you
hammerin' at yer throat
call bull
pin ears back at the dirt
your about to tear up,
wind, wind, and the wind blowing
eases the exit
i like to do dishes, i guess
for fun
and pound rocks over walls with a stick
with those arms
you stole from your grandad
the strongest man in the union army
way back when
you stood on deck
with your whole life ahead of you
car smoke
for paul
and when i say punch it
punch it,
make me push the damn thing up a mountain,
say anything is a mountain.
i'm not heavy but i'm sinking into solid
rocks.
toss me another cigarette so i can quit that too.
i didn't even mark up my arms with all the glass shards
from the windshield.
then i forgot you didn't actually run me over.
forgot that i'm alive,
and can tell you stories about the times
when i needed just one punch to keep me in line,
nothing too serious.
for paul
and when i say punch it
punch it,
make me push the damn thing up a mountain,
say anything is a mountain.
i'm not heavy but i'm sinking into solid
rocks.
toss me another cigarette so i can quit that too.
i didn't even mark up my arms with all the glass shards
from the windshield.
then i forgot you didn't actually run me over.
forgot that i'm alive,
and can tell you stories about the times
when i needed just one punch to keep me in line,
nothing too serious.
11 May 2011
self medicate
this isn't easy
the constant shock of shock therapy
your lake face
bright rash red scale
the picture still smiles when you go crazy
it's the water watering
the grass, grass, and the grass growing
take a look at my hands they aren't melting
they aren't fake
you can sell me your happy waves
your moon
controling my ocean
damn tide even shaping my eyes, which way
i never knew the wind
would carry the clippings
turning brown quickly without water
hiding the lights from dimming
electrocution is not an idea forming.
this isn't easy
the constant shock of shock therapy
your lake face
bright rash red scale
the picture still smiles when you go crazy
it's the water watering
the grass, grass, and the grass growing
take a look at my hands they aren't melting
they aren't fake
you can sell me your happy waves
your moon
controling my ocean
damn tide even shaping my eyes, which way
i never knew the wind
would carry the clippings
turning brown quickly without water
hiding the lights from dimming
electrocution is not an idea forming.
10 May 2011
spit tar
smile when i am naked
i cannot stand all your drooling
you and your control
of the ocean
though it is only wet space
liquified by my constant pummelling
skin surfing on sweat
that chokes out light from hot gas,
your pain in the ass
is not what im looking for
i tried to find the access of grinning
teeth are something i can say
feel the bones grinding
feel my spray on your face.
smile when i am naked
i cannot stand all your drooling
you and your control
of the ocean
though it is only wet space
liquified by my constant pummelling
skin surfing on sweat
that chokes out light from hot gas,
your pain in the ass
is not what im looking for
i tried to find the access of grinning
teeth are something i can say
feel the bones grinding
feel my spray on your face.
09 May 2011
nectar
i forget to drink water,
you scoot, take your little wagon,
sometimes in the desert
shouting the dirty mouth,
bats fly over cactus to cactus
with these death parts between,
lucid dreams, or am i see-ing this for real.
i am a sucker,
blood honey, the whole nine,
bathe in stretched out rays
black spots left after scrubbing
decay is a tooth, tooth, tooth
smile.
i forget to drink water,
you scoot, take your little wagon,
sometimes in the desert
shouting the dirty mouth,
bats fly over cactus to cactus
with these death parts between,
lucid dreams, or am i see-ing this for real.
i am a sucker,
blood honey, the whole nine,
bathe in stretched out rays
black spots left after scrubbing
decay is a tooth, tooth, tooth
smile.
05 May 2011
scab
just notice with your thumbs
the tightest muscle
the blood rimming your tongue
how strong a womans back is
your job
is to anticipate
bought the plot
ready to say
ready
asking a man how you lost all that weight
eating
him
carve the dried part away
from something healthy
watch the puss milk
hearing the wobble in your voice
makes me
forget what you look like.
just notice with your thumbs
the tightest muscle
the blood rimming your tongue
how strong a womans back is
your job
is to anticipate
bought the plot
ready to say
ready
asking a man how you lost all that weight
eating
him
carve the dried part away
from something healthy
watch the puss milk
hearing the wobble in your voice
makes me
forget what you look like.
04 May 2011
beard poem
walked past this blind girl
into the street
saw her once at the coffee shop in my office building
she turned and said
you have a beard
it was true, but i really didn't know what to say back
so i just smiled
but didn't know if she saw that too.
theres blood in my mouth a lot these days.
stars say im going to be dead soon.
i might shave tomorrow.
actually i will,
flower arrangement on my jaw--
drunk guys always yell at me
they see my beard too,
it reminds them of other people who have beards.
i told you the time my face was ripped off
you didn't know what to say either
so i just
walked past this blind girl
into the street
saw her once at the coffee shop in my office building
she turned and said
you have a beard
it was true, but i really didn't know what to say back
so i just smiled
but didn't know if she saw that too.
theres blood in my mouth a lot these days.
stars say im going to be dead soon.
i might shave tomorrow.
actually i will,
flower arrangement on my jaw--
drunk guys always yell at me
they see my beard too,
it reminds them of other people who have beards.
i told you the time my face was ripped off
you didn't know what to say either
so i just
02 May 2011
politics
the name change confused me
she spells it like,
my president. or like,
the earthly image of venus as a woman
as a star
when my birth is closer to other stars
or why they tell me things are looking up--
gonna make more money this month.
she said
she was hurt,
long before the first Bush adminstration
as a joke.
my life
is in sequence by decades
out of line on the 4th year.
where was i
when i had my whole life ahead of me,
on my death bed,
in my dreams. even dying now.
the name change confused me
she spells it like,
my president. or like,
the earthly image of venus as a woman
as a star
when my birth is closer to other stars
or why they tell me things are looking up--
gonna make more money this month.
she said
she was hurt,
long before the first Bush adminstration
as a joke.
my life
is in sequence by decades
out of line on the 4th year.
where was i
when i had my whole life ahead of me,
on my death bed,
in my dreams. even dying now.
28 April 2011
26 April 2011
22 April 2011
19 April 2011
your dad dies too
nothing strange happens
just laying there naked in the lawn
where the dog burries its shit.
come to conclusions.
think how normal it might be
to never speak to him again.
maybe still love him.
not sure.
you write a poem about it.
you call it a poem for your father,
remind yourself when he told you
the dog was hit by a truck
because maybe
he thought you would hate him
for telling the truth.
nothing strange happens
just laying there naked in the lawn
where the dog burries its shit.
come to conclusions.
think how normal it might be
to never speak to him again.
maybe still love him.
not sure.
you write a poem about it.
you call it a poem for your father,
remind yourself when he told you
the dog was hit by a truck
because maybe
he thought you would hate him
for telling the truth.
18 April 2011
for ACK
a beaten filthy golve
flexes best around a pop-fly
swinging branches
pointing them out to distance
these are the jokes
call the sun big sun
call a girl anything
holding cigarettes in our left hand
waiting for the next sizzle
not at all like love, Jack
unless you know where it comes
from.
and noses to water
the motion of moon waves.
why would you scream at me
pain vomit,
why is the death of us so important
a beaten filthy golve
flexes best around a pop-fly
swinging branches
pointing them out to distance
these are the jokes
call the sun big sun
call a girl anything
holding cigarettes in our left hand
waiting for the next sizzle
not at all like love, Jack
unless you know where it comes
from.
and noses to water
the motion of moon waves.
why would you scream at me
pain vomit,
why is the death of us so important
14 April 2011
11 April 2011
april
trim my nails for me, the toes
i'm moving to get away from you
all to silence myself.
i told you the sun would expand
came out of nowhere, there was nothing
hanging heat in the sky,
not enough water in the ocean
to put out a star,
too much chaos banging
from beneath us.
i told you i wouldn't bake,
told you i would save someone.
but there are too many, too many
ways to save myself.
my love will hold me accountable for hate
or the violence inside of me
that i cannot show.
blasting drums beneath the face of earth
you do not have to hate me
to hate me.
my smile does not mean i am alive.
trim my nails for me, the toes
i'm moving to get away from you
all to silence myself.
i told you the sun would expand
came out of nowhere, there was nothing
hanging heat in the sky,
not enough water in the ocean
to put out a star,
too much chaos banging
from beneath us.
i told you i wouldn't bake,
told you i would save someone.
but there are too many, too many
ways to save myself.
my love will hold me accountable for hate
or the violence inside of me
that i cannot show.
blasting drums beneath the face of earth
you do not have to hate me
to hate me.
my smile does not mean i am alive.
06 April 2011
breakfast
feelings of top heavy-ness, i steal
the chill bending over for spring
and isn't it odd?
monotony of mortal feeling
it was my love, my love, burning
centered around your form
there is always a shadow there is always
the face side.
throw yourself at someone who shows no interest
isn't it odd?
the difference is what we don't remember.
difference in monotony
this is your brain on mortality
this is your brain
livin'
feelings of top heavy-ness, i steal
the chill bending over for spring
and isn't it odd?
monotony of mortal feeling
it was my love, my love, burning
centered around your form
there is always a shadow there is always
the face side.
throw yourself at someone who shows no interest
isn't it odd?
the difference is what we don't remember.
difference in monotony
this is your brain on mortality
this is your brain
livin'
05 April 2011
end of the world
ambling, river walk hey lady
does the angelic flutter into dark
and rainbow trout
hides the hook hooked under a roundish face
ray of light, oh god
the gays!
ambling lazy street walk
the weather makes you
talk, a life like tornado
i am the moon ripping the waves of pain in your metal jaws
i am a songbird singing
i am the wind and the wind and the wind blowing
storms of jupiter into your mouth
Woman
sideways eyes on a snake gargling hiss at the black spots on its face,
the inevitable swollen sun
you are the watered lawn
you are the grass growing
Woman fosil, sinner of freedom
pressing the green against me
moon never sways
the lonely endless midwest
surfing to galaxies.
ambling, river walk hey lady
does the angelic flutter into dark
and rainbow trout
hides the hook hooked under a roundish face
ray of light, oh god
the gays!
ambling lazy street walk
the weather makes you
talk, a life like tornado
i am the moon ripping the waves of pain in your metal jaws
i am a songbird singing
i am the wind and the wind and the wind blowing
storms of jupiter into your mouth
Woman
sideways eyes on a snake gargling hiss at the black spots on its face,
the inevitable swollen sun
you are the watered lawn
you are the grass growing
Woman fosil, sinner of freedom
pressing the green against me
moon never sways
the lonely endless midwest
surfing to galaxies.
04 April 2011
autobiography
wants to be
brutal too,
hammerhead shark-like
where the eyes are at,
burried under ocean.
doesn't remember the great compromise
ing it, make the sounds
leap off a do, or i
movement brush
forget what is covered up.
brutally
wises you over
with the glance of unshaded eye
sockets,
owl turning neck of her.
expanding sun, roast
makes the conscious beat
of what we can live,
ing it,
again, and then some.
wants to be
brutal too,
hammerhead shark-like
where the eyes are at,
burried under ocean.
doesn't remember the great compromise
ing it, make the sounds
leap off a do, or i
movement brush
forget what is covered up.
brutally
wises you over
with the glance of unshaded eye
sockets,
owl turning neck of her.
expanding sun, roast
makes the conscious beat
of what we can live,
ing it,
again, and then some.
25 March 2011
slow walk apocalypse
holding a body—
sometimes i am an asshole
the eye’s slits
cum in the clean jeans
trapped by environment
look like a baby
whole lives
ahead of us--
your body rubbed soft
red at the nubs,
even with a second body,
in case there is no one tomorrow
quiet you, quit--
squint at the sun. say sun.
i’m not dancing, i'm blind,
i’m not ready for the swing--
deck me,
break all my fine china
digging a hole through earth
to china, easy does
the other side, the other
chinese lives, where.
so the body
keeps growing
does it shit,
we wait to see--
or ass, or bottom
of a beautiful barrel, apples
slice things with knives
ask why i always carry knives
“there are a lot of stabbings
in Grand Island.”
so scary, so wounds cut,
chop noise from cat alley
the sun is increasing in size
night slowly, paw.
am i right,
can you see the dust settle
watch the echo,
bouncing space debris off
past lovers, a fuck
reflections of people you think
talk to yourself
with this new body you found
looking alone with her
wrapped around you.
forgot the words, or
only remembered poems
about falling space dust
ricocheting off some body
turning over and over in your awake
sleep, pretty when you
no, snoring is love,
no this unattractive pile is love
my love, dark as space between
another sun
dust on emptiness, you
you, and the grass growing
under the snow
the beard with all twigs
being afraid of people leaving
or wanting to
lost in a world like china,
not unlike the attractive middle of nebraska
the arms don’t know their chest
well, imploding
she thinks it’s useless to talk to them
but still talks to them.
holding a body—
sometimes i am an asshole
the eye’s slits
cum in the clean jeans
trapped by environment
look like a baby
whole lives
ahead of us--
your body rubbed soft
red at the nubs,
even with a second body,
in case there is no one tomorrow
quiet you, quit--
squint at the sun. say sun.
i’m not dancing, i'm blind,
i’m not ready for the swing--
deck me,
break all my fine china
digging a hole through earth
to china, easy does
the other side, the other
chinese lives, where.
so the body
keeps growing
does it shit,
we wait to see--
or ass, or bottom
of a beautiful barrel, apples
slice things with knives
ask why i always carry knives
“there are a lot of stabbings
in Grand Island.”
so scary, so wounds cut,
chop noise from cat alley
the sun is increasing in size
night slowly, paw.
am i right,
can you see the dust settle
watch the echo,
bouncing space debris off
past lovers, a fuck
reflections of people you think
talk to yourself
with this new body you found
looking alone with her
wrapped around you.
forgot the words, or
only remembered poems
about falling space dust
ricocheting off some body
turning over and over in your awake
sleep, pretty when you
no, snoring is love,
no this unattractive pile is love
my love, dark as space between
another sun
dust on emptiness, you
you, and the grass growing
under the snow
the beard with all twigs
being afraid of people leaving
or wanting to
lost in a world like china,
not unlike the attractive middle of nebraska
the arms don’t know their chest
well, imploding
she thinks it’s useless to talk to them
but still talks to them.
22 March 2011
21 March 2011
15 March 2011
banana poem
so i was walking with this banana in my pocket that i was going to eat for lunch
and i kept wondering if people would say hey
is that a banana in your pocket or are you happy to see me
you know, as it goes
and i wouldn't know what to say if i WAS happy to see them
the either or, black or white
as if this banana in my pocket
causes me to hate everyone.
so i was walking with this banana in my pocket that i was going to eat for lunch
and i kept wondering if people would say hey
is that a banana in your pocket or are you happy to see me
you know, as it goes
and i wouldn't know what to say if i WAS happy to see them
the either or, black or white
as if this banana in my pocket
causes me to hate everyone.
14 March 2011
11 March 2011
where we
i was never more separate
than free, zone
off what i want to need
who i am, roll
down the window a crack
wind says whistle
jump while running
jump while standing
stand still
when the shit is scared out of,
i am sorry i loved you
i am sorry i lied
i am sure
about something,
my heart
never caught up with my aging.
i was never more separate
than free, zone
off what i want to need
who i am, roll
down the window a crack
wind says whistle
jump while running
jump while standing
stand still
when the shit is scared out of,
i am sorry i loved you
i am sorry i lied
i am sure
about something,
my heart
never caught up with my aging.
09 March 2011
08 March 2011
07 March 2011
brass tacks
showing you/ your best hands
look like a mirror or all your hands
trophy wife gets old
legs fall off at my bites.
buy shoes again, waste of it
all the walking,
a room carpeted in greenbacks,
sweat your chops for midwest summer
job,
feed off/ the dying
you laugh at me when i come in fear
say, how are you.
answers fall from outterspace.
showing you/ your best hands
look like a mirror or all your hands
trophy wife gets old
legs fall off at my bites.
buy shoes again, waste of it
all the walking,
a room carpeted in greenbacks,
sweat your chops for midwest summer
job,
feed off/ the dying
you laugh at me when i come in fear
say, how are you.
answers fall from outterspace.
03 March 2011
jesus
make me feel august as a car drives
get it just standing next to the bus
by all the other busses
i used to say that i have read
all the lord of the rings
but i never have.
there is only one city named Iowa City,
where i am from.
people say, jesus a lot. here.
kyle, i know, is out west where he's from.
i have no patience to head west. jesus.
he said, girls are a headache for sure.
i drink normal coffee drinks
and name them things.
like god would if he drank normal coffee.
when i wake up,
or i said the only things that get me going
are women and coffee.
she takes too
long.
over here under the colored light,
we pretend things are always.
i speak about drugs,
or tell people my father almost died.
inside i am almost me,
and growing some.
make me feel august as a car drives
get it just standing next to the bus
by all the other busses
i used to say that i have read
all the lord of the rings
but i never have.
there is only one city named Iowa City,
where i am from.
people say, jesus a lot. here.
kyle, i know, is out west where he's from.
i have no patience to head west. jesus.
he said, girls are a headache for sure.
i drink normal coffee drinks
and name them things.
like god would if he drank normal coffee.
when i wake up,
or i said the only things that get me going
are women and coffee.
she takes too
long.
over here under the colored light,
we pretend things are always.
i speak about drugs,
or tell people my father almost died.
inside i am almost me,
and growing some.
28 February 2011
where i am going
my face the spring
need to be watered is everything
where the twigs, flowers, and grass grow
wind, wind, and the wind blowing
does swivel bridge cables;
hello fog.
even a desert needs,
but it won't take sand to make it
grow under the chin
red mark or eye chart i am failing.
what i meant was
to jump.
my face the spring
need to be watered is everything
where the twigs, flowers, and grass grow
wind, wind, and the wind blowing
does swivel bridge cables;
hello fog.
even a desert needs,
but it won't take sand to make it
grow under the chin
red mark or eye chart i am failing.
what i meant was
to jump.
24 February 2011
23 February 2011
22 February 2011
18 February 2011
morels
write about the fake ways
i know you,
lions mane growth near the city
woods,
thinking about travel words
and such about up
and then the up
write about a poem for you
question the for you,
or what you are for, ears
of mushroom
i just keep thinking about
the things i said.
how you cook them, things.
speak hush to the rib,
chest-webbing
nibbling slowly around the edge.
write about the fake ways
i know you,
lions mane growth near the city
woods,
thinking about travel words
and such about up
and then the up
write about a poem for you
question the for you,
or what you are for, ears
of mushroom
i just keep thinking about
the things i said.
how you cook them, things.
speak hush to the rib,
chest-webbing
nibbling slowly around the edge.
17 February 2011
16 February 2011
sunglasses poem
need new pair of sunglasses
need the sun
to leave,
bright mirror or
dusty mirror
or i
am the sun.
the sun is always here. some
times,
like globes.
do you mind that i call you
in california,
or if i wanted to.
sun.
globular is a pretty ocean,
sun, not just a lake of fire
not just the cool look
of sunglasses
need new pair of sunglasses
need the sun
to leave,
bright mirror or
dusty mirror
or i
am the sun.
the sun is always here. some
times,
like globes.
do you mind that i call you
in california,
or if i wanted to.
sun.
globular is a pretty ocean,
sun, not just a lake of fire
not just the cool look
of sunglasses
15 February 2011
14 February 2011
08 February 2011
on the shape of nebraska
in me, Nebraska
shaped the way i see you
just waking on your front side
write you a letter
in my mind
say, i saw you once and remember it
cross the Misourri River again
i always look down
to see what is floating
every thought, you think
i could pretend
not to know what i knew of you
mist, over sandhills
where the cranes
make it back
all this silly travel,
talking about our day jobs
listening to the same sounds
your chin i think,
where the indian caves are
in me, Nebraska
shaped the way i see you
just waking on your front side
write you a letter
in my mind
say, i saw you once and remember it
cross the Misourri River again
i always look down
to see what is floating
every thought, you think
i could pretend
not to know what i knew of you
mist, over sandhills
where the cranes
make it back
all this silly travel,
talking about our day jobs
listening to the same sounds
your chin i think,
where the indian caves are
da bears
meet me by the harry caray statue
tell me about
the good old--
demi-gods running on diamonds,
find me
a place to eat where i can eat chicago
ask the guy who just
walked out of the
liquor store
where is the united center
and i know
drive through south chicago
think
that its funny
how scared you are.
eat a fucking huge hot dog.
meet me by the harry caray statue
tell me about
the good old--
demi-gods running on diamonds,
find me
a place to eat where i can eat chicago
ask the guy who just
walked out of the
liquor store
where is the united center
and i know
drive through south chicago
think
that its funny
how scared you are.
eat a fucking huge hot dog.
07 February 2011
feel occupation
for gould
is what you said or to feel
as if its fur on me
and sounds like rain drops or
all these boys,
always a boy there
grabbing little marshmallow-hands
at a nip,
or things that sparkle,
singular as you
nest at the end of a bar, fully clothed
just
make it work,
the boy says sometime later on
as if words will do
for gould
is what you said or to feel
as if its fur on me
and sounds like rain drops or
all these boys,
always a boy there
grabbing little marshmallow-hands
at a nip,
or things that sparkle,
singular as you
nest at the end of a bar, fully clothed
just
make it work,
the boy says sometime later on
as if words will do
aquatic center
for anthony
did i make that last one up
or these new
sheets i bought
for you again, i think so
so about it
i am lying
about how good i am at
swimming
with propellers on each hand
gliding through the water
like a fish.
we said rhymes were silly
or just off
rather
we could just repeat the words
but you aren't paying attention
anymore, just
thinking about me swimming.
for anthony
did i make that last one up
or these new
sheets i bought
for you again, i think so
so about it
i am lying
about how good i am at
swimming
with propellers on each hand
gliding through the water
like a fish.
we said rhymes were silly
or just off
rather
we could just repeat the words
but you aren't paying attention
anymore, just
thinking about me swimming.
03 February 2011
02 February 2011
poem
i had a flask in my pocket, whisky, some change
laying on my back, drive-way
the clouds where your head tops
broken in there.
the pigeon shark, the peregrine.
you were made for this city,
snow goddess, spit on your season rite,
focusing on the birth of things,
of more yous only... stranger. i
sound like a sad man i guess
but my back is grounded
with fire belly full of answers
i had a flask in my pocket, whisky, some change
laying on my back, drive-way
the clouds where your head tops
broken in there.
the pigeon shark, the peregrine.
you were made for this city,
snow goddess, spit on your season rite,
focusing on the birth of things,
of more yous only... stranger. i
sound like a sad man i guess
but my back is grounded
with fire belly full of answers
drive after we
a poem for a poem
your phone thing walk-
talkies to my phone thing,
using phone words
hey, and um
breathing, but the shoes don't get used
or the snow works like rain on them
finding plants with names
pretend we know
i wait for your pillow to say
face, you are lovely
or i just whisper this in a poem
about the interstate hours
be dead air for awhile
pretend we know that too
hear sounds others make
bathing and washing off travel
go home
maybe, for the speed in my ankle turn
let it be anywhere
back in a small room with a smaller bed
a poem for a poem
your phone thing walk-
talkies to my phone thing,
using phone words
hey, and um
breathing, but the shoes don't get used
or the snow works like rain on them
finding plants with names
pretend we know
i wait for your pillow to say
face, you are lovely
or i just whisper this in a poem
about the interstate hours
be dead air for awhile
pretend we know that too
hear sounds others make
bathing and washing off travel
go home
maybe, for the speed in my ankle turn
let it be anywhere
back in a small room with a smaller bed
31 January 2011
facebook oriented sci-fi novel
the movie 2012 was the modern retelling of
the great flood
when the gurus of facebook
get fed up
with making all that crazy greenback
and suddenly with out warning
vanish
facebook
from the walls of the internet
to revel in their new found demi-god status
while the world
eats it's self in the chaos.
the movie 2012 was the modern retelling of
the great flood
when the gurus of facebook
get fed up
with making all that crazy greenback
and suddenly with out warning
vanish
from the walls of the internet
to revel in their new found demi-god status
while the world
eats it's self in the chaos.
27 January 2011
26 January 2011
25 January 2011
becoming, of you
thats how i met my
current girlfriend, overheard--
etc. stories
of how she bathes like a flamingo
pink; pees down her leg,
digs through soil as some-other
animal
searching for crawling meals
the girls i love
make a museum few would care to see
even w/ minimum donation;
stiff-dead grizzly bear
in mid-fish.
thats how i met my
current girlfriend, overheard--
etc. stories
of how she bathes like a flamingo
pink; pees down her leg,
digs through soil as some-other
animal
searching for crawling meals
the girls i love
make a museum few would care to see
even w/ minimum donation;
stiff-dead grizzly bear
in mid-fish.
21 January 2011
19 January 2011
18 January 2011
station
so you faked the sad parts, my arms
cry big boat-
load the shoulder, making turn
after turn, after
you notice my lack of ampersands
and teeth
the venom kind, kinda like
poetry is not.
sand on the cement for slip
control'd behavoir
in the lost pit of midwest territories
cabin fever'd and
name yourself log-hands
cry, and cry until your brain fizz'z
interlock
knuckle bones
mention to me more about this secret
world you got
so you faked the sad parts, my arms
cry big boat-
load the shoulder, making turn
after turn, after
you notice my lack of ampersands
and teeth
the venom kind, kinda like
poetry is not.
sand on the cement for slip
control'd behavoir
in the lost pit of midwest territories
cabin fever'd and
name yourself log-hands
cry, and cry until your brain fizz'z
interlock
knuckle bones
mention to me more about this secret
world you got
14 January 2011
12 January 2011
06 January 2011
the genie of rock falls
'dutch' reagan wished
he could be an actor
maybe a cowboy from brooklyn
a kid can dream
for cheap cigarettes anywhere
swinging ladies from swinging vines
turning anything into wine
locals claimed a miricle
when two menards sprung up
next door to each other,
the selfish and their wielded weapons
the distance is a river,
no the stretching arm of want
claims more lives than a boot
legger,
where is your boot i ask
can you fix your pot holes
can you stop slashing our tired travel
because i said i would be
the coolest person in rock falls
someone already wished for that,
fifty years later
they were able to wish for it again
right before dying
because, to be cool is more than a fonz
more than being
the next american president.
'dutch' reagan wished
he could be an actor
maybe a cowboy from brooklyn
a kid can dream
for cheap cigarettes anywhere
swinging ladies from swinging vines
turning anything into wine
locals claimed a miricle
when two menards sprung up
next door to each other,
the selfish and their wielded weapons
the distance is a river,
no the stretching arm of want
claims more lives than a boot
legger,
where is your boot i ask
can you fix your pot holes
can you stop slashing our tired travel
because i said i would be
the coolest person in rock falls
someone already wished for that,
fifty years later
they were able to wish for it again
right before dying
because, to be cool is more than a fonz
more than being
the next american president.
04 January 2011
chicago made paul go bald
the messes of dircetions
extended caffiene life
forms the top
yell out the moving car
fog, why are you still here
then it clears
for the towers
the one with the richest
woman in the world
she will never be my woman,
she will never ride in my car
lost through south chicago
blasting biggie smalls
waiting for the fog to clear
the messes of dircetions
extended caffiene life
forms the top
yell out the moving car
fog, why are you still here
then it clears
for the towers
the one with the richest
woman in the world
she will never be my woman,
she will never ride in my car
lost through south chicago
blasting biggie smalls
waiting for the fog to clear
27 December 2010
beard poem
for paul
the jaw angle hangs fat
do you still believe in ten
commandments?
were my hands any stronger
i could hurt you easy by saying it
look up words
to say
say, the part of me that hurts is
every part
so i eat less--
heroin is nothing to me, me.
unless i want to 'come in my pants'
and i told you about this
train, i said you took
but you took absolutely
nothing from me, the haves
my dirty underwear maybe
my lonliness
or the spit
on my hands
to grip the grip tighter
to nail it
to leave my face
at home.
for paul
the jaw angle hangs fat
do you still believe in ten
commandments?
were my hands any stronger
i could hurt you easy by saying it
look up words
to say
say, the part of me that hurts is
every part
so i eat less--
heroin is nothing to me, me.
unless i want to 'come in my pants'
and i told you about this
train, i said you took
but you took absolutely
nothing from me, the haves
my dirty underwear maybe
my lonliness
or the spit
on my hands
to grip the grip tighter
to nail it
to leave my face
at home.
fish jaw
i will talk
under a mouth bone
artificial structure added
but unable to chew
through, thumbs for teeth
plucked at the joints or
cherry picker
will i talk
nice words about you and your
pretty bacteria
unseen on my swinging
knees bent in unmoveable buck,
hip tall boots
grabbing at river darts
show me your true talk
over in the shallow
where the river moves slow
i will talk
under a mouth bone
artificial structure added
but unable to chew
through, thumbs for teeth
plucked at the joints or
cherry picker
will i talk
nice words about you and your
pretty bacteria
unseen on my swinging
knees bent in unmoveable buck,
hip tall boots
grabbing at river darts
show me your true talk
over in the shallow
where the river moves slow
re-application
use the feet for function
all the ground being tight-rope
damp in romantic
because socks are for sandals
here, rotting wood pile
a poem about trees
tall living soulless, is
nose stubs, bent up branch
run my licked thumb over your eyebrow
girl thing
bite at the air passing between
your arm and ribcage, skinned
and jacketed
covered in water, can you
stop thinking
you are such a forest, moving
toward the moon
the top of your head breaking clouds
use the feet for function
all the ground being tight-rope
damp in romantic
because socks are for sandals
here, rotting wood pile
a poem about trees
tall living soulless, is
nose stubs, bent up branch
run my licked thumb over your eyebrow
girl thing
bite at the air passing between
your arm and ribcage, skinned
and jacketed
covered in water, can you
stop thinking
you are such a forest, moving
toward the moon
the top of your head breaking clouds
23 December 2010
21 December 2010
17 December 2010
16 December 2010
15 December 2010
porn poem
formerly known as kryzewski
a proverbial winter wonderland, i
never saw it coming
beautiful ice sculptures of naked women
and large
toys
my brother lost his job when the porn shop
burned down
many people lost their
jobs
the things you can see, or subject them
into being actual people, on fire.
i haven't decided how it might affect me.
the only time i have ever been in a porn shop
was for moral support
when dane wanted to buy playing cards with naked fat women
on them.
that was around christmas too.
formerly known as kryzewski
a proverbial winter wonderland, i
never saw it coming
beautiful ice sculptures of naked women
and large
toys
my brother lost his job when the porn shop
burned down
many people lost their
jobs
the things you can see, or subject them
into being actual people, on fire.
i haven't decided how it might affect me.
the only time i have ever been in a porn shop
was for moral support
when dane wanted to buy playing cards with naked fat women
on them.
that was around christmas too.
14 December 2010
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