leisure consultant 

well well we made 

smoke rings w our mouths

cried abt now bc 

thats when it was

i should tell y’all a tale

whats dragged behind the car

we drove all the way

on a donut wheel

i dont wonder how late it is 

big sky tells me all i need to know

and thats not much

but love hits hardest before a storm

out on the prairie looking

for an lonesome oak

i say thats me but nobodys around

to listen to my voice shaking

so hard the ground splits open a mile

ill let you know what i found

when i get back into town

but dont wait for me

i might take my time

maybe not

who knows

tree poem

i asked her 

where does

the wind 

come from

and where 

does it go

but she laid there

on her back

in the sun

quietly

for a long time

 Z

somethin abt it IS nothin

rings tru/ fish breathe what yall breathe

a gallon of crude oil/ read an email

and well that was generous + kind of 

the time it takes me away

from here where home was until

we made it a house/ painted shell

emptied by agreement disguised as love

gently pushes our bodies into a flame

gift

wish someone would

tell me what day it is

i want to buy a gun/// but not for me

i wonder

whos alone outthere right now

ill leave

the window open

appliance 

i fucking hate comfort and familiarity rules everything around me

 the barter system is a lie too

how much sand do you even think there is

beneath the waves

i saw an island disappear

her name was mother

sssss

or at least thats what i called out

on my deaths bed

what i forget

i want to press
my face deep into yr stomach
turn so my ear listens
all that’s inside you
what it smells like here here here here here
my big nose up yr armpit
nipples out over the sink
i told you i’ve been seeing ghosts
what does this tongue remind me of
feet in wet sand
how it feels to almost drown
gullsound but blind eyes spin
tall grass growing
i want to be broken and left there
slowly eroded
by wind and the water
running over me

TREE POEM


what am i what
am i

an easy lean towards warmth
my face every shade
of blood

i own nothing
and have never been to war

o! sun kiss
my naked flesh
the milkweed borrows

dream of fire
and rot

i squeel when they
eat the dead of me

a maze
where my soul escapes

pardon my heart



laugh at your past
kyle said "can you
about these poems write a number of poems and die
do you die can you do it 1000 times before matthias can hike
his dogs to mt killamanjaro (sp)
i have a serious talk to go
talking
can i use dreams to say how i felt tripping in that electrical storm
do i even like grid planned plain towns
its so flat and smooth asphault
kill me
i wonder if the weather can read my mind
i dont know a way back to anything of a smile
but im writing a billion poems to pay off my debt
to some stupid magic
these are moments where i think i am human
or a human thinks how the hell can i be me
can i meet her at home
can i ever move my lips w/o crying
here is my stupid mouth
my jingle teeth
a nowhere that you can roll out for miles
tie it to my feet
and fly me close to the storm

I AM SCUM


what a wall can do for me
so i got caught pilfering a donut at the donut shop
so i talk rude to cops
fuck god
i have to wait a few minutes after rage
fuck rage
a fence you can see thru is poison
you say i am clean and everyone around me is scum
why do all my friends want to die
or is it numbskulls mumbling prayers to a wall
the other side is just turning your back on what holds you
this is my fucked up grin
teeth i have collected off the beaches 
the ocean will kill you
the sky is not blue it is just distorted light
i mean there is no color in anything
unless you see it

CHA CHING

this guy i met once who used to work with a friend of mine

getting weed or something

he lived in this gated community

my friend mike said he was from brazil

wait let me make something clear

i am an ideas man

i dream big and choke to deth

so this brazil guy he was tall a lot taller than me and im not short

said if we went to brazil to stay away from non tourist areas

because if you are an asshole at some local dive bar

someone could pay a beggar 5$ to kill you

and this is all about world cup 

the stadium in rio can see columns of smoke

rising from another soccer field not too far away

where local gangs burn people alive in stacked tires

i never save

my money i mean 

this is what we are talking about

when we say we are alive

pay for falling

i want to be on another planet

i think in order to win this war

we need to stop believing in war
money is as real as we want it to be
everyone hears poetry
but listen

CAVE DWELLINGS

sometimes i am reminded of who i was a long time ago
a ghost is the smallest element
i kept trying to use a line in a poem while driving from boise to nebraska
i used it
i wonder what life would be like if i was me again
see things that are a memory of a spec of my dedself
earlier today i was thinking about a time when my father kicked me
as i was on the ground trying to change into clothes for yard work
i wonder if he figured i would forgive him
we forget a lot of events in our lives
years and years if we try hard enough
it is no effort though
thats why its so hard
we see things painted inside of our skulls
this is when we had a good hunt
or when we cried in a ball on the floor

HOW TO COOK PERFECT HARD BOILED EGG

1. get eggs

2. leave eggs in fridge maybe eat one or two any way u want but not hard boiled… yet

3. wait for them to get to date on carton thing

4. place eggs in large pot filled w enough water to more than cover all eggs

5. fill up large bowl w enough water to cover eggs and place bowl in freezer

6. pour a lil salt and a lil vinegar into water 

7. turn on stove top to lets say some where between medium high and high

8. cover

9. wait for it to reach boil

10. let boil for 3-5 minutes

11. remove from heat

12. let sit in hot water for 15-20 min

13. remove 1 egg and dip in in ice water to cool then spin it 

14. if it spins p good then remove all eggs and put in ice water

15. IF EGG SPINS WOBBLY PLACE BACK IN HOT WATER AND BRING BACK TO BOIL FOR IDK 2-3 MIN

16. put bowl of ice water and eggs back in the freezer for 10 min

17. remove eggs from ice water, dry, eat or store for 5-7 days

SPANGLED 


hurts to breathe
read the internet
while taking a dump
i am having a baby
i am a baby
we are in a computer program
the super volcano is going to kill someone
maybe
we will all die one day

HUNGER


i'm blind and i'm stupid i say to salt water
why am i so afraid
of everything?????????
a murderous wave to say hello drowning my old friend
where do people find all these fish
inside of you
i stumble into sadness i cannot run on the beach
w/o feeling
that i have wasted so much
i scream into my brain cage
this skull kills fascists
beating my head w/ the palm of my hand
shout WAKE UP
and eyes fill up w/ tears to whimper
i do not remember my own home
there were once millions of bison here
where can i be buried
that doesn't make me a thief

WORST

muffucka never

          i want to fill up all the unfilled holes

                               w/ a huge last cry

    heavy isn't just

 what i carry

 i wait for someone to leave me a voicemail

dad died

     i guess it could be

       i feel like jesus except not fake jesus a real jesus

        who says MY FATHER IS A PIECE OF SHIT

but i forgive or i dont

        it really doesnt matter

       a thud on the roof is nobody there

                     something is wrapping on the window w stones

what abt all the ppl who hid

  inside the horse

         where is my best friend?

toes

it takes me a few weeks of stretching
to even act like i can touch myself

they thought i was faking how inflexible i am
but they are monsters

i am just a worthless son/brother/friend
i keep telling myself

tomorrow i will be a better me
maybe a year from now i will stop dying
on this rock

TREE POEM

only the ground asks me 
where i am going

i look down at the things closest to me
as if i am the queen of it

i take shits here
standing

if deth wasn't so permanent 
i probably would try it a few times

and i scream
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN
I AM SO SAD PLZ CHOP ME DOWN

but the wind blows
and nothing else happens

FEEDING FRENZY

i know that painting
i mean i know why i am watching breaking bad
looking at clearance furniture online
i checked yr blog
i am really interested in the chemo scenes
i cried a little bit ago
sitting on my roommates sectional couch
smoking marijuana
it annoys me when ppl act like marijuana
is for children
i am not an age just the same decaying bum
inflating and the other
i need to cut my finger nails
it is very windy outside
or so i hear

WET CASH

u see a future skip across lake babcock

hold yr face down so the pigs dont smell yr drunk ass

we are laughing

each rip echoing thru air is last breath, no, they found you

laying in a ditch